Thoughts on the passing of David Bowie

(image does not belong to me and I am unsure of source)
I hosted a Gallery Show the other night of Sere art, and a prime topic of conversation was David Bowie. His appeal spans generations, and as he had just released a new album in the previous week, we discussed his impressive longevity. We praised Bowie’s dynamic ability to fit into many different characters while maintaining his signature style and sound. We celebrated his music and his movie stints. 
All in the conversation acknowledged the legendary status of David Bowie.

The following day, he was gone, taken from the human circle by cancer. From reports following his passing, it sounds like he had been bravely fighting the illness for the last 18 months. His newest music release, “Blackstar”, hints at a dying man, even though it was released on his 69th birthday. Evidently, his recent exit was known about and kept mostly secret for some time.

Gone too young, too soon.

He has always been on the periphery of being a favorite artist of mine. I grew up in Europe with his presence in the 80s — his music, his movies, his art — and his influence affects me to this day, primarily through the other artists that he affected with his talent. He and his contribution to humanity will be greatly missed.

I’m predicting that my #1 album for 2016 will be “Blackstar”. Though I didn’t appreciate David Bowie to the extent that I should’ve over the years while he was alive, I promise to give his last creation the attention and appreciation it deserves.

You and your art will be dearly missed, but not forgotten.

Lightspeed, Ziggy.



I laugh when I hear people praise God for the great things in their life, yet give the concept a pass when things aren’t so great. QB Rodgers will point to the sky when he connects with a receiver for a TD; curse his luck when a throw is intercepted by the defense. When something happens that we can’t reasonably explain, we call it “An Act of God”. When the result is fortunate, we praise; when product is unfortunate and the cause is unsure, we curse.

Either way, we steer clear of “blaming” a divine source when the outcome isn’t positive.

I had a feeling this was coming. The specter of tragedy has been hanging around my world lately, with a snide grin and a mean streak. I seemed to be adept at dodging, until today, when during a routine trip to work I encountered horribly snowy backroads and thick AM work traffic. The world was a mess this morning, but nothing out of the ordinary. I’d traversed worse in years previous. As a pizza delivery driver in Minnesota, I know winters are unforgiving and damaging to your chariot of choice. I delivered pizzas in ice storms and blizzards without a scratch.

Today, the specter caught up with me, pushing me in a wicked trajectory in a direct path with tragedy.

My friend Rachelle’s car was totaled when someone backed up over her car, and destroyed it. That was over new year’s, I hear.

My friend Kelli’s windshield was crashed last week by a errant swan that fell from the sky.

Today, I was in a car accident, an unavoidable one that could be considered an “Act of God”, an unavoidable intersection of “wrong place at the wrong time” and “slippery conditions”. I encountered a patch of slick road at the top of a hill, and lost traction during my descent down the hill. My fate was locked when I entered the intersection at the top of the hill, and became trapped by the accident. At the precipice of the accident, I had three choices: swerve into an oncoming, westbound lane to dodge the person turning left in front of me, rear-end the person turning left in front me, or smack into a vehicle that was parked directly next to the car turning left in front of me, roadkill from an earlier accident at the same place. The police had not yet removed the vehicle from the scene, and there was a Police Reserve officer waiting with the vehicle for a tow-truck to arrive. Thus, out of three lanes of traffic, zero allowed me an exit path from the helpless movement forward on pavement that had been pressed to icy glass..

A crash was inevitable. I don’t believe in a God, so I won’t categorize it as an “Act of God”. I was pushed into a slide where collision was the only available outcome–the only real choice was how extensive the damage was going to be to the area through which I was passing.

Like Rachelle and Kelli, I was in the wrong place at the wrong time.

Dark serendipity, or the world trying to tell me something?

In that split second of decision, I saw the ricochet of the car before me as I crashed–without the ability to stop–into their rear end. The collision could’ve continued in several ways, one of which would’ve sent the car before me into the oncoming lane of traffic, causing greater damage and loss and injury. As it was rush hour during a very snowy morning, the oncoming lane of traffic was packed with cars trying to make their way through treacherous roads and up the Larpenteur Street hill. A direct slam into the back of the car before me at “free-slide speed” would’ve resulted in injury of the driver, probably damage greater than whiplash, as they were prone and waiting to turn left.

I chose to take my chance with a small opening between the car that was turning left, and the car from the previous crash that was parked along the road right next to it. The hole was slight, and the angle was difficult, given the fact that I had completely lost traction and had to slide to safety.

I almost made it. The right passenger light and quarter-panel of Rave (my 2011 Mitsubishi Eclipse) clipped the rear driver side of the parked, crashed car. It was a clean shot that destroyed the front passenger side of my car, decimating the light and quarter-panel. Luckily, I didn’t end up scratching the car turning left in front of me, and I didn’t do greater damage to the crashed car that blocked my way around the person turning left.

All things considered, the crash could’ve been a more violent accident. No one was injured, and the only damage that resulted was done to a prone vehicle that had already been in a crash. In MN, I am 100% at fault for the accident. I was not driving recklessly, nor was I distracted. In fact, the only reason the accident didn’t result in greater catastrophe was because I was coherent and focused and


As I recall the accident, I praise myself for choosing the path of least damage and resistance. The accident that resulted will probably cause thousands of dollars worth of repairs, and I was cited with a failure to “Do my Duty to Drive with Care”, which is silly because I did everything I possibly could to avoid greater damage, including directing the skid–in which I had lost most control–away from oncoming cars.

Today, I’m not filled with the fear and dread of previous auto accidents. A car accident is usually an unnerving event, one that causes stress and heartache and life tension. But I am not stressed, nor am I tense.  I attacked the problem with calm that has become customary. Perhaps, I’m just wiser now, weathered by the assaults. Or maybe I’m just apathetic, having surrendered to the reality that there is little I can control.  Or I’m ready for the fight, much better than I had been in years previous.

I’ve been with the same auto insurance agency for the last decade, without much to talk about, so I’m not worried from that perspective. I was able to get a rental car, a compact called a Nissan Versa. The car rental agency was half a mile away from my first apartment in the Twin Cities in 1998, down familiar Old Hwy 8, the first landing place for my ex-wife and I when we moved from Green Bay to the Twin Cities after college. In the lobby of the Enterprise office, where my path in the Twin Cities began 15 years ago, I felt an odd circle of understanding join.

Accidents happen, and God has nothing to do with it.

Nor does it care near as much as we do.

“Awakening” (Ray Morris)


(posted to The Grim Triune writer’s circle private exoboard by Oliver Drake, pseudonym of the late Ray Morris on July 20, 2004. I have not edited it or spellchecked this piece; it is was the final piece Ray posted to the message board, where he, Jason Graham and I were collecting content for a fiction trilogy project)
The suns began their ascent through the sky. A gentle breeze rustled the leaves that fell from the nearby grove of trees. Awakened by the sound of a flock of birds taking flight, the mysterious figure dressed only in a rust colored robe rose to his feet. He awoke lying in the grass next to a pond in the clearing of a thick forest of trees. He was quite disoriented, knowing he had never been to this place. “How did I get here?” he wondered. Then he realized he didn’t even know where he was supposed to be! “What is going on here?” he said to himself. Consumed by a feeling of panic, he searched desperately for a familiar landmark! Reaching up to run a hand through his hair, he realized he had none. Running to the pond he looked at his reflection and didn’t recognize what he saw. He was bald and had a tattoo of some sort on the side of his head, though he could not make it out. Absent- mindedly he rubbed the smooth stone that he held in his hand. “Where did this come from?” he thought to himself. Out of the corner of his eye he saw a reflection in the water. 
(vision)The soldiers carried the coffin across the snow. The sobs of the grieving could be heard though he could not see them. It appeared to be a grand procession, with many men dressed in glorious armor. They trudged on through the snow never moving from their determined path. (end vision)
“Am I going crazy?” he thought to himself. “Visions, funerals, knights and through all of this, I do not know where I am?” Something, though he wasn’t sure what, was urging him to travel north. The woods were empty, not a single animal stirred. He traveled on in silence; then in the distance he heard the pounding of war drums. His walk had become a run, almost in response to his steadily increasing heart rate. As he got closer to the source of the pounding, he heard the clash of steel on steel and screams that seemed to come from all around him. His body continued on, though his mind was in a state of confusion. He ran as if possessed, ignoring the rocks and sticks under his bare feet. His lungs burned and his muscles ached yet he continued on until the forest gave way to an immense field that was consumed in utter chaos. 
He looked upon the scene with paralyzing fear! What he saw was the army of a city desperately trying to defend its gate from the assault of an army of humanoid creatures, the likes of which he had never seen. This army was made up of scaled creatures with wicked long teeth and claws as long as daggers. What kind of creatures were these men fighting? The armored soldiers fought with a fury that was almost bestial. Swords flashed, axes swung, and arrows flew from every direction, and still the beasts pressed on. All the while he could see women tending to the wounded. He could hear spiritual chanting coming from all around the battle as if the healers and people of the town were singing a hymn: “urging on our defenders to fight even if it seems futile, we will emerge victorious if we only have faith”. In the middle of all of this there was a spectacular tree of majestic beauty! The tree seemed to be slick with sap as it ran freely down the trunk. The beautiful singing healers were collecting the sap as it cascaded down the tree. You could see them giving it to the wounded that were all around the tree. There were peasants fighting along side the soldiers with what ever they could find to use as weapons. Some had sticks, others had rocks and pitchforks; they cherished their beloved city and felt honor in standing next to its defenders. The mysterious stranger was trying desperately to make his way to the gates of the city, when he was surrounded by three of the vicious beasts. With out conscious thought he began the complex incantations of a spell. “Phatathanalasaz ashir verilosium” and before his very wide eyes the creatures screamed as they were bound in a stasis field unable to move. Astonished at what he had just done, he continued on his path, for he was being surrounded again. He saw guards fighting desperately to keep the creatures out, when a sharp pain exploded in his side! He saw the ground rush up to meet him and then there was nothing…but……blackness.
Seven figures stood above the unconscious man. They were the Druids of the Twisted Oak, who had been around since time on Ryvven began. They and only they knew who this man was. The druids were each a small fragment of Ryvven’s essence that was cast down to form the Great Tree of Creation. They are the only beings directly linked with mother Ryvven herself and the connection between Ryvven and the Temporans, Ryvvens eyes and ears on the prime material plane. The Temporans were a separate race created by Ryvven to govern the land, for if ever the balance shifted to heavily to one side or the other they would bring about the Prophecy of Renewal. The prophecy is said to bring the end to all existence!
There were no war drums, no battle cries —- only silence and a blinding light. He did not know whether he was dead or on his way to the other side. 
(visions)“You are in neither of those places my son,” came a majestic voice filled with power and yet comfort. “You are in the Tree of Life where nothing can harm you. Rise to your feet Drythakmere, for your journey is only beginning. We have brought you here in an effort to help you, which I am afraid may cost us dearly!” “Why did you save my life?” Drythakmere asked with a shaky voice. 
“Yes. I am sure you have many questions, but I am afraid we have few answers. What can be said is that you are in the kingdom of Vales, and as we speak, mankind is fighting for its very survival. The magics you exhibited on the battlefield run richly through your being, though they may seem foreign to you as of yet. As time goes on they will come to you with great ease. The stone you carry, The Druids Stone, is an ancient artifact that will lead you in the right direction. Your road is a long one and your trials will be quite dangerous, but know this Drythakmere: if you should fail, then the hopes of all existence perish with you! Your journey will begin in the most ancient of ancient cities. There is a warrior priest on that battlefield that you must find; his name is Father Sigeon Payne.” (end vision) 
When Drythakmere opened his eyes he was looking upon what could have been the most beautiful creature ever created. He looked upon the healer with wonder, there was a sweet taste in his mouth. Drythakmere noticed the pitcher, which was filled with sap. He caught his reflection in the sap, and there was a flash.
(vision)The procession came to a halt in front of the pier. The lid to the coffin was lifted and there was a most brilliant light spewed forth. And as soon as it appeared the coffin lid slammed shut and the light was gone, replaced with an impenetrable darkness.(end Vision)
When he looked up, the maiden was looking at him with a sympathetic expression. Then she handed him a few vials that must have been filled with the healing sap of the Twisted Oak. She bid him a fond farewell and moved on to the next soldier who needed her attention. 
Drythakmere sat looking at his surroundings, unsure of his next move. He was brought quickly to reality when the growls and screams of the armor-skinned creatures seemed to be getting closer. He noticed they were not completely without guidance; there were robed figures that appeared to be directing the monsters. Standing on the edges of the battle, there were six robed figures that were deep in concentration, apparently needing to concentrate to maintain control of the beasts. 
He began to formulate a plan, “I must get to those clerics somehow.”
As he made his way across the field, he saw there was another man with the same idea. This man swung his mace like an extension of his own arm; he wore the robes of a cleric, but not like the ones manipulating the evil army. These robes were of silver and blue and seemed to match the armor that the soldiers of Vales were wearing. Reaching the beasts’ masters, both men converged on the group of robed figures with fire in their eyes. Drythakmere sent a ball of flame from his hand that engulfed the first man within a chamber of fire. The cleric smashed the next with a powerful swing of his mace. The robed figures noticed their brethren being attacked and summoned the creatures to defend them, but they arrived too late to save them. As Drythakmere used his magics, coming a little easier now, the cleric used his mace to dispatch the rest of them very quickly. They turned their attention to the krae-tin that were making their way towards Drythakmere and his priestly companion. The krae-tin were attacking themselves and anyone else that got in their line of sight. Without guidance they ravaged anything they could find. With their unorganized attacks they were quickly losing their superiority. 
Though this battle was far from over, Drythakmere took this opportunity to meet this warrior who fought by his side. “Hello friend. I am Drythakmere and you are?” 
“Well met, my name is Father Sigeon Payne cleric of the order of Aurric. I have spent many days traveling the land of Giengra, and have never met anyone who could throw magic with the power you have exhibited here today!”
“They said I would find you here, but I wasn’t sure if they were really there. It all seemed like a dream.”
Their conversation was interrupted by the arrival of the creatures and they quickly got back to business. They were setting to defend themselves when out of the woods came the most ferocious battle cry they had ever heard. They looked and before their eyes a warrior dressed in the skins of an arctic bear tore through the krae-tin like a tornado. His axe ripped them apart with a fury all its own. They ran to his side and together the three of them decimated as many as they could get their hands on. 
The soldiers and town folk saw the disorganized krae-tin running blindly, looking for something to attack while the archers set upon the castle wall targeting as many as possible. 
All on the field were awestruck at the sight of a beautiful white steed carrying an armor-clad warrior on its back. His squire, who was trying desperately to keep up, followed the knight through the gate. All of the soldiers on the field saluted the pair as they rode by, but they appeared not to notice. The knight slew all of the creatures that got in his way. Riding away from Vales, he never looked back.
The party had killed all the creatures in their vicinity, and was regarding each other in amazement at how well they had fought together. They looked at the gates to Vales and realized this battle was far from being over. Hundreds of the krae-tin still fought the soldiers. 
“What is your name son?” Father Sigeon asked as they made their way back to the battle.
“I am Arcturis Bighorn, son of Nydastramus Brig-Mist Chieftain of The Clan of the Talon, from the lands of Briggard.
“It is our pleasure to meet such a valiant warrior as yourself. I am Father Sigeon Payne of the order of Aurric, and this is Drythakmere. We too happened upon this fight and lent a hand where we could.”
Arcturis stood speechlessly staring at Drythakmere, and suddenly dropped to one knee and bowed his head. “You have the symbol of my clan painted upon your head therefore my axe and my life are yours to command. My father sent me from our village, to lend my axe to the good of all man. He was a very wise and powerful chieftain, and knew that our people were but a thread in the great fabric of life. There is a much greater evil at work then just these filthy creatures. My path led me here, and now it seems we share the same path.”
to be continued….
[Edited by oliver drake]